Greetings. It has been a while since I have posted anything. I know I had something of a small following at my previous blog, but I have been dedicating myself to life a devotion — a messy combination of Orthodox and Anglican daily prayers, focusing on personal repentance and penance (because that’s what Orthodoxy does best). It has taken me some time to accept the humility that has accompanied the failure of all my public efforts. It still bothers me, but I am slowly living into it.
Next up will be to take my last book, Kesslyn Runs, off Amazon and unpublish it. Two weeks ago, it came to me full-blown one morning at work how to rewrite it. Plus, I have a whole other novel, the first volume of a sci-fi epic I intend to call Song of the Salt Miner’s Daughter, set in a Hindu-dominated space empire some 3,000 years in the future, bubbling in my head, that is begging to be rewritten. Unlike with Kesslyn, there will be no depth here (or pretense at depth). It will just be a nifty little story about some characters and how they get swept up in cosmos-changing events.
Would that I could quit my job and devote my life to writing. And praying.
I am also slowly pulling myself off social media. I don’t intend to market or promote this blog, or my books, any, though I will try and find a publisher for them before I self publish. I would suspend my Facebook account if I could, but I need it for work. I have logged off Twitter but have not yet had the courage to delete my account. I may, at some point, delete my Tumblr blog and repost here some of that stuff I found in library books while working at my seminary library. I do like posting the occasional photos on Instagram.
But generally, I do not like what social media does to me. It makes me angry and unkind. I suspect it does that to a lot of people. So, I need to step back, withdraw from the world of false urgency that we live in — everything is an imminent crisis demanding an immediate emotional response and urgent action or else all is lost! — to remember that the Internet is not reality (not even me) and that there are permanent things.
I will occasionally comment about things — stuff I read, stuff I listen to, stuff I’m focusing on in my devotional life. But I’m not committing to any posting timeline. I tried to blog daily for a while to build an audience, but that mostly didn’t work. I’ve had to realize that whatever I want to say, I don’t have anything very many people want to hear, much less pay for. I’m just not all that interesting.
And that’s what I’m trying to be okay with.
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